I just started taking skullcap tincture daily this week for my anxiety. (A few drops under the tongue, or a few in water or tea). It is an herbal sedative and it works extremely well in that it mellows me out within minutes. My heart rate slows, I stop worrying and just feel chill as hell. It also makes me sleepy and helps me sleep better, but without impairing my mental function. In fact, I can close my eyes and have a clear mind without any chatter and focus on a specific task if I am not too sleepy. I am very happy about my experience with Skullcap this week. I think this works the way friends have described their anxiety meds working, but I have no interest in seeing a doctor about this issue or taking addictive tranquilizers. (If it’s right for you, don’t listen to my post.) I am going to try other herbs that won’t make me feel drowsy for taking in the morning, or when I start working such as nettle and Bach’s Rescue Remedy. But skullcap has been a lifesaver this week and I’ve accomplished more such as organizing my bookshelves and organizing my studies once again and sleeping a full night without worry or waking up again is AMAZING!! 

I think a huge change in my life is in store for me soon. The Fool, The Tower, and Judgement keep falling out of my decks while I shuffle them, or flash before my eyes. I need a change, so I look forward to it. 

My new deck, Tarot of the Magical Forest :)) It’s very cute and sweet. 

I made my own deodorant. So far it came out well and the grapefruit is actually very refreshing. I blogged the recipe here, as well as what I think about deodorants and their ingredients. This recipe is actually very soothing, like a lotion. I’ll have to put it to the test of a day out and strenuous exercise. So we’ll see. Sorry about the lame photo. 

I decided to make a more personal blog, which will be this one. I will have a theme here that is more suitable for full text posts. My other tumblr is mostly reblogged images that appeal to me, inspire, or just look beautiful. I don’t feel like I can write too many long posts with it fitting in well. I just want to be able to write about my life when I need to.

Right now I am job hunting, but after two days it has already lost it’s luster and I’m starting to feel depressed, anxious, and worried. I did a tarot reading about it, which turned out alright. Perhaps I will post it to this blog. Last night I purchased my first professional tarot reading on etsy. I usually do my own, but I really wanted the experience of having my cards read. Expect to see many posts about my own tarot readings on this blog. If my card reading ends up well I will surely be posting the video I get. It’s going to be about my aura and I’m totally excited. 

Japan.